[ And at that, Choromatsu's voice raises and he snaps, but not because he's angry at her ]
Because I'm always yelling at him! I'm always calling him a useless piece of shit and a stupid, worthless brother! I'm always treating him like a waste of space!
He died thinking that's all he was! And I--
[ --know that it's the network's fault. He knows it's the fault of this entire sick game. He knows because that's how it was with him. How the title that stared him down bore into him for weeks and as more and more shit fell apart around him he believed it more and more... it's the same. And yet, ]
I thought that's all he was too!
[ the guilt still hangs over him. His hands are balled tightly around pillow and bedding. He can't help it. ]
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Because I'm always yelling at him! I'm always calling him a useless piece of shit and a stupid, worthless brother! I'm always treating him like a waste of space!
He died thinking that's all he was! And I--
[ --know that it's the network's fault. He knows it's the fault of this entire sick game. He knows because that's how it was with him. How the title that stared him down bore into him for weeks and as more and more shit fell apart around him he believed it more and more... it's the same. And yet, ]
I thought that's all he was too!
[ the guilt still hangs over him. His hands are balled tightly around pillow and bedding. He can't help it. ]